It’s easy to waste time wishing I had never encountered a narcissist. However, I am choosing to spend the time left in my life to move in a different direction. You can too. Here’s one of my favorite clips on that topic:
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Moving back
I moved back into the condo on the recommendation of my lawyer. She was convinced my N and his lawyer were trying to say I abandoned my children. So I lived like a guest in my own home, set up a make-shift living area in the loft, and we had an agreement that I provided his “work-related” child care so I could be with my children. I did my best.
Flashbacks come every so often of what those five months were like. For instance: when I packed my daughter’s lunch for school the night before and he came home at 11pm from work, unpacked it, and repacked it with something HE made. It was futile to address it as he would have flown into a rage at me.
Former brainwasher
It’s funny when you try to have an adult conversation with someone who is used to brainwashing you. Somehow the N can’t seem to figure it out.
No lamenting allowed
I’m thankful for the clarity to see who my N is. Yes, I could spend my time lamenting that it happened at all. But I’d rather move forward.
For shame!
Too bad narcs don’t feel shame. However, it was cleansing for me to write the following:
You didn’t make leaving easy. Instead, you hired a lawyer who tried to take the children away from me, tried to paint picture of my abandoning the children. Shame on you. Really. For shame.
Let it rip!
What the hell did I ever do to you except decide I didn’t want to live that way anymore? I wanted to move us ALL someplace safer, but you refused and dug in your heels.
I then decided safety for our children was more important than maintaining this sham of a marriage. What the fuck is so wrong with that?
I gave you COUNTLESS opportunities to prove you were human. Finally I just fucking left.
Fuck you, N. Seriously. Fuck you!
Is there a narc on board?
How to tell if a narc is in your boat……they wouldn’t row in a different direction, they’d poke holes in the bottom when you weren’t looking.
Unrequited love
I’m over unrequited love – the longing for something you can’t have – the lovely romantic notion of star crossed lovers.
Take me to dinner or lose me forever.
Sneaky PTSD – and choices
No matter how strong you are feeling, be careful about PTSD sneaking up on you.
Just happened to me and it was only from a scene in a movie I was watching. Good thing was I had the option to turn it off and walk away.
Life After the Narcissist
Did you know that women who have been in an abusive relationship are 70% more likely to have heart disease?
It is almost like I am the poster child for “why you need to stay away from the narcissist in your life”.
Because of my devotion to JC, my determination to make it work, my belief that what we had was special and my faith that the “real” JC was kind and loving; I have jeopardized everything good in my life.
I get a little frustrated sometimes with women who come in here thinking they can’t go on without the N in their life, I understand totally how they feel I just get frustrated that I can’t convince them they will survive and life WILL be so much better the sooner they walk away.
I remember thinking I couldn’t live without JC in my life, I remember thinking all I…
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The Journey Through It 